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on 21st march 2020, i turned 22. growing up is such a scary thing but no one can stop time. adulting suddenly seems so real and i have to say, i dread to think about the future. just last year, i was celebrating my 22nd korean age in Korea while i was on exchange. i did not celebrate it with familiar faces. instead, my classmate celebrated for me. i had traditional seaweed soup just like Koreans take on their birthdays. she bought a cake and candles to celebrate as well. i appreciated this gesture so much, just because i was alone in a foreign country and no one knew it was my birthday. until this day, i am so grateful for this friend for initiating a conversation with me on my first day of class and having a meal with me. this year, nothing spectacular happened. i learn to appreciate the friendships that i have and i am grateful. being someone who needs my comfort zone the most, i am thankful for my close friends in school and hall and church. there are so many things i have to work on this year and for the next few years, i will have to think about my future seriously. it's such a scary thought but the clock is ticking.

not like anybody cares and it's not like anything very significant has happened thus far. but i guess i will just let my fingers type on before i go to sleep.

internship. it is pretty interesting to be on internship during this period of the coronavirus outbreak. i mean, my company has rolled out the business continuity plan which includes half of the office working from home on a weekly roster basis. and it is my turn to work from home this week, the second week i have worked from home so far. it is quite interesting working from home if you ask me. first and foremost, i get to wake up after the sun rises (which also means i get to sleep later at night), and it is quite comfortable to work at home i actually lowkey enjoy it. but the things that get on my nerve the most while working at home is that the server gets really laggy which tests my patience a lot and it can be inconvenient without the big screen that i have in the office. oh well. half office last week was less stressful and so much more peaceful i actually like this arrangement. but we don't know how long this arrangement will last for.

church commitments. just for this internship period, i will not be joining the ntu ministry for bibletalks because no way am i travelling all the way to the west for two hours - it is so out of the way. but instead, i have joined simcity for bibletalks because they are at much more convenient locations for me. joining simcity had allowed me to talk to more people beyond just my bibletalk group which is kind of a good thing i guess! since cny, we have not been meeting as a congregation in church. to minimise the risks of any possible infections, we have been having first century services in our bibletalk groups instead. while i do miss the band for worship, this arrangement has allowed us in a way to grow closer as a community. but the ntu ministry is so small and only has mostly sisters that i think we'll be combining with other bibletalks HAHA.

other things. honestly, nothing much? except i have taken part in two covers for amethyx this year, and will be taking part in another two...? ish if it happens? so yes am back from my hiatus.. my last dance cover with amethyx was literally in 2018 that's tragic. i'm also slowly thinking about how my final year in university will be like. i feel like i will be overloading quite a bit which means that i will probably have to quit mj... i don't even want to think about it. in addition, i've also been trying to figure out what i would like and not like to do after graduation. wow, adulting is real. i'll be turning 22 in a bit and it feels so surreal i want to go back to my teens days where there wasn't much to worry about.

all the love and till next time x