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such a cliche post, but i today, as i woke up half an hour ago, i felt that it was necessary. it hasn't really hit me yet that the year is ending - it's like i know it, but it still hasn't affected me like how i expected it to. i'll be turning 21 in three months, i'll be going off for exchange in two months (which reminds me, i have yet to settle so many admin stuff), i'll be starting my third year of university, and basically i need to start adulting.

this past weekend, i took a step out of my comfort zone. i don't know, maybe it was crish's consistent persuasion or something, but on friday, i went to hang out with lauren and bethany (kl sisters) and bosco (hongkee studying in aussie) along with a few other locals, ian robbie and andrew. i was so scared to be doing this that my hands felt cold when i was in the train. but the evening got better over time. we walked along haji lane and arab street, most of the time spent talking, before we settled at symmetry cafe to chill. we literally just spent the time talking at symmetry cafe for a couple of hours. crish then came with jaehyun, a korean working in singapore who was just asking for directions and decided to join us. while crish was spending time with regine, i was at the international table with lauren beth bosco and jaehyun (wa). we then headed to dhoby for dinner where we were joined by more locals - and we had to dabao outside the cathay to eat as there were too many of us. that was when i learnt that jaehyun was seungcheol's middle school classmate!!! i was so shook and i still am - it's so cool. jaehyun was just casually asking me if i know scoups, because robbie told him that i like seventeen, then he told me they were middle school classmates. ok wow, this random guy crish met on the streets and joined us for the day turns out to be seungcheol's middle school classmate. after dinner, we headed to nex for karaoke, but i left early with the sisters, jaehyun and robbie cos... i was so tired. i really am not the late night kind of person la. then on saturday, cathline came to singapore. she arrived late, so a bunch of us waited at the moon, a book cafe, to wait and chill. we finally met at 7ish and headed for dinner at song fa bak kut teh. it was my first time trying it, but it was so good. also got the chance to catch up with her after five long years! we then walked/headed over to clarke quay and during the journey, i talked more to cathline and she actually still remembers what happened during our dgroup sessions?! really really glad to have been able to catch up with her after a long while though the time was short. on sunday, we stayed quite long after church for fellowship (lol surprise surprise) and me and joey headed to yishun for lunch before going home. but somehow, all for her dog, we headed to crish's house. a bunch of people were there already watching some netflix shows, but i was there for the dog and he was so small and cute i like melted. we had dinner at her place also, where crish's mum cooked spaghetti for us and we watched kpop stuff. then at 8.30, after some of them left, we played german bridge. sherwin came back at like 10+ and we played scattegories(?) until 11 and reached home at 12.30. three consecutive nights out seeing almost the same faces from church. i can't remember how long it has been because what's in my memory for staying out all night long is in hall.

and 2018 had been quite eventful, i would say. i finally had my conch pierced on the first friday of the year, our simpsons batch became so much closer and we've had quite a number of memories made even though hanrong went on exchange, performed with amethyx for the second consecutive year, saw wannaone three last times this year, got a couple of free tix for concerts and omg 5sos. academically, it was a struggle, but i managed to pull through this sem and i'm grateful. i got to know a bunch of friends in school and am grateful that i'm still keeping in touch with a few people from my og. i joined mj and got to know melissa through camp. got to catch up with some good old friends. experienced being a fake freshie for the first time and it was fun. my spiritual walk had not been the strongest this year, especially the later part of the year, and i'm working on it. as 2018 comes to a close, i just want to thank everyone whom i have crossed paths with for being a part of 2018. some people i met this year, some others we grew out of touch, and some, we caught up. it had been tough, but we've reached the end. onward, 2019.

till next time x

hello!! there were so many things i did not get to blog about this year - like hpf, which was a great great great three days of concerts, and many other random things and happenings like supper hop. now that finals are over, the semester is over, and i finally have time, i thought i'd sit down and just take a moment to blog about things that have happened recently.

night cycling 2018 
my first night cycling ever, because i was in the plane on the way to laos during last year's. it was a good time of bonding with the batch people and also exercising as we cycled for like 7 hours ish, from east coast park, to changi, to pasir ris and finally to punggol. peishi's legs were aching after the whole ride but... my butt bone was the only thing that was aching after night cycling. we stopped by a supper place and at some rest stops, played with a lil doggie!! i guess cycling really is the sport i am most okay with, other than swimming.

uniqkidz 2018
i love kids, but my uniqkidz experience made me think twice about this statement. i couldn't be a gl for uniqkidz last year because i was in laos, but i got to be a gl this year, marking, possibly, my last hall activity as a resident of hall 1. i'm not complaining about the experience, but it was tiring trying to keep up with my kid's enthusiasm for the games. there were so many games which were fun, but by the end of the three days of camp, my energy was completely drained out. i'm grateful, though, for the three dinners we had after every day. from sushi to mookata to monster curry, it was a good time getting to know more of the juniors a little bit more. i'm quite proud of jingwen and lusin and myself for joining all three days of dinner as we were the only girls and the only people from our batch. but really, dinner times during uniqkidz were the best as we could unwind and rest and talk about the kids.

uni retreat 2018 
so i went for uni retreat instead of kai. and i went alone. slowly, slowly stepping out of my comfort zone. the three days in jb were pretty chill, i would say, and the games were like next level, especially the stocking tug of war. it felt so cool to be staying in an apartment with nine other sisters, and bonding with my group mates over meal times. the lessons and sharings were very convicting as well, and i came back home feeling so much more encouraged by my friends. it is not everyday you get to eat dtf so often, but i had that on the first and last day of retreat! surprise! i saw jingwen at jb outside dtf!

any other things
christmas party with amethyx on christmas day! we looked so cute. also, i got my admission letter for exchange. i want to match more modules, but the maximum number of modules we can match is 20.. help la. and i have a whole lot of administrative matters to settle before i fly off in february, tentatively. i'm so sorry if this post is messy but that's exactly how i'm feeling now that the year is almost over!

till next time x

it was never like this five years ago. i remember being enthusiastic and looking forward to meeting people, i remember being just so unnecessarily loud, talking to almost everybody i see, i remember enjoying being able to talk to people first and continuing the conversation. i remember not being socially awkward.