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hellooooooo, and i am back again after a month of absence. i must say, quite a lot has happened this past one month, despite the mundane cycle of work every day. but!!!! it has been quite an eventful, sometimes boring but definitely an interesting second month of the year.

the last few days of january was chinese new year. and this year's chinese new year was... in a way different from other cnys??? we went to chinatown on lunar new year eve which was not a very wise decision... it was so crowded everyone was literally shoulder to shoulder plus the fact that i was tired and sleepy did not help. i like concert crowds but,,,, not this. (anyway we saw ms serena that evening). and this cny at popo's house, instead of the usual talking and relatives trying to differentiate between me and joey, some of us actually played cards. for the first time in the past 19 years of cny experience. yeap. we played bridge and german bridge and this somehow allowed us to interact-- our third aunt was like "yes go play cards. you know why? so that you all can interact."-- and this was the closest i felt to my cousins at my dad's side. and we even created a whatsapp group OKAY HAHAHA. i'm still awkward #justsaying . and at ahma's house...... it was like the total opposite cos we communicate with our cousins on social media so we didn't talk much this cny. and i said it was different, because we usually talk to our cousins on our mum's side more than from our dad's side so yeah. interesting cny, if you ask me.

the two new temp staff came to work!!!!!!! amanda and brittney, same batch, and are nice people i suddenly feel so much more comfortable and in a way, more open at work!!! even though i was never close to amanda in secondary school dance, and we never kept in touch at all in jc, it was so easy talking to her and just being full of crap. i sometimes feel awkward with brittney but honestly, it's quite unnecessary. HAHAHA but i am just so so so so so so so very glad that there are two new people whom i can connect with easily at work now bless!!!

finally met up with minray alice and yuting at minray's for steamboat dinner!!!! it had been months cos the last time i met them was before A levels but it honestly is always a good time with them!!! laughed until my face went red when i learnt what minray's spiciness tolerance level was LOL. my sense of humor sometimes gtg but grateful for these 3 for allowing me to laugh freely. also met up with ku and hengjie after a very very very very long time since before A's because ku was either in taiwan or hongkong or at work so it was hard to meet up. that short meet up was good too because like me joey and hengjie were literally high on.... air?? and black ball but yes so good to finally be able to meet the most annoying person on earth. and!! also met up with cindy and jiahui for like lunch-dinner and although it was short it was a great time because of cindy and her.. way of talking? it's so hilarious and it was a good catch up and time spent laughing!!!! ok basically i met up with my secondary school mates this month-ish.

and in church, we're no longer in the jc ministry. instead, we've been joining campus uni activities even before we got our results. i guess i'm still trying to adjust to all the activities and everything. sometimes i do feel overwhelmed. but i am really grateful for my dgroup inviting me to activities like the cny hangout (which wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, honestly LOL resident evil and all)  and accepting me in. and also cannot forget my small jc group of people aka my comfort zone so whenever i feel awkward, which is all the time, i can go back to them. thanks friends i love you all. but like why we no farewellllllllllllllllllll :--------------( also shout out to half of the jc kids who came over to our house for steamboat the other day thanks for not making it fail luh honestly i was so scared i teared up trust me!!!!

and the most intense and final part of college journey happened on friday. A levels result release. i was a ball of nerves i started crying about it on sunday my hands were cold the night before i just couldn't bring myself to accept the fact that results day was so so soon i was even contemplating on going back to receive my results. the last time i went to school was 23 november because that was the last day of A levels. LOL. but in the end i still went to school uh got to accept the fact you know. i'm like proud to say that h2 history is the best subject of the year (haha) with 100% passes and 95.3% AB and like 80+% A???? i was so happy i cried when i saw that 100% pass cos i thought i would fail. i was so scared to open my results so xintien helped me see first and she said it was good i was like???? so i saw for myself and for a lazy and distracted person like me even DURING A levels, i must say i am quite satisfied and amazed at my results. even though i really wanted an A for math but carelessness just!!!!! for me, i was just like, wow PRAISE GOD i seriously thought i would have gotten worse, considering how we went to bali for like 10 days in june and how i was so into kpop and dancing during A level period. praise God, really. after results, we had 18 chefs and bingsu with jasleen and liming just stuffing ourselves because we were just feeling.........???? yeap. also wanna mention ameerul dexuan kelvin and xintien for just asking how i did and feeling happy for me even though i was still trying to process my results (which i still am, by the way).

this marks the end of a 2 year college journey for me and the start of university life, hopefully. i am so nervous for what the future holds but i know that God has a plan for me. Jeremiah 29:11.

till next time x