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christmas decorations are up, christmas lights lighting up the streets and christmas carols playing everywhere we go. the mark of the ending of the year, yes, it's christmas time. it's so good to see people being so happy this festive season being surrounded by friends and family, exchanging gifts and all. the genuine smiles on the faces of children when they receive gifts and seeing all the santa clauses, really warms my heart and reminds of christmas as a child. 

hello friends!! or anyone who reads this at all. it's the long weekend because it's christmas weekend!! but i have no other why, it doesn't really feel like christmas for me the past few years. but oh well.

as i mentioned in my previous post which i think i did, i started work on wednesday alone for the first time in my entire life. i know, what a loser. but i mean all things were fine the past three days at work. on the first day, i had orientation with two other new comers and i got to talk to them a little about uni and stuff even though they were a good 9/10 years my senior but okay. and i got introduced to the people in the department i'm working in and had lunch with a few of them. yeah they're nice people but something about office work still scares me idk. ive also started doing actual scanning which kinda stresses me out like omg what if i mess up and stuff. i have yet to experience a full week of work, and i probably won't experience until like, next year with the long weekend coming up for the new year so. i hope all will be well in my time here. i mean so far the people have been really nice and even telling my sisters stories about work made juan say that my colleagues are nice and wondered if joey's colleagues will be the same as mine HAHA.

but let's just enjoy the extended weekend for now. i really don't know what to do or what to feel. it really doesn't feel like christmas to me and i don't know why. yes christmas decorations are up and christmas carols are playing and all but i still feel so empty idk why i think i'll just dance this weekend. sorry i'm a boring person.

sorry for the short post i really don't know what to say i just suddenly felt like talking about work so

till next time x

hello all!! this post was initially supposed to be for my thailand trip but i was lazy and so many things happened afterwards so i just cleared the draft and this will just be a short post about post-A's life so far. it has been almost a month since A's ended, it feels so long ago already but so short at the same time. and i've been pretty busy since it ended and i finally got some free time and forced myself to post this!!

but okay A's ended on the 23rd and on the 25th it was sisters appreciation day! apparently it was a last-minute plan which the brothers stayed overnight preparing for and it turned out not too bad!! thanks yall for actually making it happen this year! i really had fun and laughed a lot, and i enjoyed it very very much, especially when the music started playing!! we went off quite early but the jc ministry actually went to nex to have supper together and they sent selfies and created a whatsapp group i couldn't help aww-ing omg!! i suddenly love the jc ministry so so much even though i'm gonna graduate in like a month's time. :(

afterwards, from 27 to 30 november, we went to bangkok, thailand!! it was our first trip to thailand and it happened because our mum was asking where we wanted to go this year end- she probably had indonesia in mind because we always went there, but i just said bangkok because we haven't been there before, shopping, and somehow learning about thailand in sea history lessons have perked my interest about sea countries so!!! and yeah we were there either shopping or eating. or shopping or eating. i absolutely loved the mangoes there omg it was so sweet and yummy and when i got back to singapore and people asked how thailand was, i said i loved the mangoes and they were like "yeah i know i watched your snapchat story it was mangoes all the way" OKAY I'M SORRY FRIENDS but really, it was really really good. got to eat various dishes throughout our stay as well such as pad thai and pineapple rice and more food and that kept me happy. oh gosh typing this actually makes me miss thailand hfeejnf!!! oh yes we travelled via the train system which was cool!! and we didn't manage to visit the temples even though i kinda wanted to. but we shopped at platinum fashion mall aka go there if you wanna shop. you need to save up lots of money because there are so many clothes there you might like and also, one day there is not enough i'm serious. it was a great 4 days in thailand we got to sit on a boat to another part of bangkok and ride an elephant (!!) and go to a floating market and i would want to go back there soon!!!

then we had prom on 1 december, one day after we got back to singapore. we dyed our hair before that and took uber to orchard hotel everyone looked so good!!! it wasn't worth 90 bucks but oh well, they played some kpop songs which i danced to HAHA and also got to meet joakim gomez again and he recognised us!! it was quite an experience even though i think it would have been better if i knew more people. but whatever jc is only two years no point knowing so many people for nothing, to me. it was a tiring night for me idk maybe it's cos of the makeup. okay that's a lame excuse.

the following weekend, we went to genting! it was technically my first time there, even though my mum said we've been there when we were two years old but that doesn't count. i survived two times of six hour bus ride without earpiece ok bless and i also forgot to bring my jacket ha ha ha. i really really loved the temperature in the highlands!! even though there was nothing much to do we went around resorts world taking pictures. also had good food. :)

and from 9 to 11 december, we had our annual teens retreat. my fourth and last retreat. i feel so nostalgic now. i had a fair bit of fun, considering how most of the teens are at least two years younger than me. and it felt like a long time since we had a 3d2n retreat in church. the jc ministry was really really tiny as only a few of us went, especially since the j2 brothers were at rop doing pt till midnight while we... fellowshipped and had fun. throughout the weekend i especially felt a sense of attachment with my fellow jc people because i would always go to them sometimes abandoning my group idk maybe cos comfort friends!! like we would eat together during meal times and just play cards or whatever. i'm just so grateful to this group of "teen oldies" because we've been through this tough 2 year journey together and idk we just slowly got closer and i really can't believe that we'll be moving on to the campus soon. i'm feeling overwhelmed and have mixed feelings now. but anyway i really enjoyed this year's games as it was an escape room concept which was totally different from the past 3 years and it really was very fun!! and also, instead of the yearly bbq we have. this year we had gala dinner and buffet! food! it was a lil awkward for me but ok. and i think for the first time in the teens retreat that i have attended, our group got first place for the games!! bless yall team good enough even though i always abandon you and don't talk to some of you and didn't participate much, i really appreciate all of your efforts in the games!! ok!! and the most exciting part is that we went up to see the reconstructed rooftop of our church building!! it was really really really really nice and visiting the 5th floor as a ministry, i suddenly felt a little emotional thinking of graduating from the teens ministry after 4 years. sunday morning exercise was walking all the way to waterway point and walking all the way back to our normal place under the bridge lol and also lunch with the jc peeps!! jc peeps if anyone of you are reading this, i really really appreciate and love yall ok!! let's hope i won't be emotional on the day we officially move on to the teens hahah!!

this past week. we've been looking for jobs with crish and crish literally sent our details to every advert on the internet??? so we literally had morning calls for 3 days straight but bless because we finally found jobs. for the first time, i'll be working along. omg. i don't know what to feel i'm half excited half nervous maybe a little more of the latter but!! yeah and i start on wednesday while crish and joey start next year omg help what if i have to eat lunch alone what if i dress to informally or too formally idk let's hope the next 3 months will go well!! and maybe i'll extend the work contract because i need to save up for uni and for other stuffs as well ahhhhhhh. okay work. which basically also means that i won't be as active on my social medias anymore and probably an opportunity for me to gain more experience and meet more people ok take it positively. GOD BE WITH ME.

and another thing to worry about for the next two months plus, results!! and uni!! i really need to get my life together and start deciding on what i want to do in uni and everything!! ahhhhhh it's so nervewrecking, but slowly does it!!

so yup that's how my post A's life has been! i've also been learning to dance boom boom full choreography yay because you know dancing is my only form of exercise so yeah. but i think with work, i won't be able to dance as much anymore but i'll try. also, i don't think i'll be updating my blog very often either because life would just revolve around work for me... we'll see, hopefully interesting things happen to me as well!!

till next time x