Joween
25 & dreaming.

//carpe diem//

better known as joweeeeen. your typical singapore girl. searching for happiness. quite a sentimental person who appreciates cards and letters a lot. crazy at times and pretty emotional. has a contagious laughter and a twin too. older every 21 march. insecure, annoying and always overthinking. shy and quiet, or outgoing and loud. afraid to trust, but dare to dream. loves long hugs, heart to heart talks, sincere text messages and reading handwritten cards. imagining things that will never happen. always setting high hopes and getting disappointed in the end. figuring life out every single day.

9 June 2013, the best day of my life. Live like Jesus, live with Jesus and live for Jesus.
"For nothing is impossible with God."-Luke1:37♥

jayesslee asia world tour 17/1/15
otrasg (omg i still can't believe it) 11/3/15
echosmith live in singapore + shopping 11/8/15
JTR @ asian tv awards 3/12/15
malfie @ dmu 5/12/15
slflsg (omg it was lit) 3/3/16
pentagon in sg 3/6/17
sf9 in sg 30/6/17
vixx in sg 2/12/17
jbj in sg 30/12/17
in2it in sg 2/2/18
jbj exid b1a4 in sg 21/2/18
5sos3 singapore 2/5/18
mxm in sg 4/5/18
wanna one in sg 13/7/18
hallyu pop fest 7/9/18-9/9/18
astro aroha festival in seoul 2/3/19
sbs super concert in gwangju 28/4/19
dream concert 2019 in seoul 18/5/19
w24 concert @ clubff 22/6/19
onlyoneof dot point jump fansign 29/6/19
kamp singapore 10/11/19
onlyoneof hit the line tour in malaysia 22/11/19
onlyoneof produced by part [1] video call fansign 7/6/20
e'last awake video call fansign 5/12/20 12/12/20
ntx full of lovescapes video call fansign 26/4/21 15/5/21
d-crunch daydream video call fansign 4/6/21
d-crunch addiction video call fansign 8/4/22 16/4/22
tan 2tan we ver video call fansign 31/7/22 13/8/22 14/8/22
tan dream & deurim video call fansign 28/10/22
nine.i i(part 1) video call fansign 22/12/22
tan essege video call fansign 25/3/23
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wrps '05-'10
cchy '11-'14
pjc '15-'16
ntu wkwsci '17-'21
& a slave of capitalism for the rest of my life

joey joeyer xueqi jiahui tricia faith venessa (old) venessa eugina (old) eugina cindy clara clara

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1) expect changes 

change is inevitable. even in the song Love You Goodbye by One Direction has the lyrics "it's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end". ((i'm sorry i just had to make that reference HAHA. i've known this since probably forever, but it's this year when the changes have been really big in most aspects of my life. i've moved on from secondary school to junior college, and even though the change is not as big as compared to going to polytechnic, there are still changes within the school system itself which takes time to adjust to it. also, i have experienced changes especially with my friends and family this year. friends - be it in school or at church. but yeah. i've learnt to expect changes. if things are good now, there's a chance that it won't remain like this for long. some circumstances are bound to change situations whether you like it or not. i don't know, but maybe i myself have changed since the beginning of the year. friends? have i? HAHA. 

2) consistency is key 

this applies to school. it is really very very crucial to be consistent throughout the year. okay i may have exaggerated but it is ideal, i guess to be consistent, in a good way of course. back in secondary school, i can do really badly for my class tests, get single digit for my amath class test, but yet just do okay in my exams and i am able to promote. this is probably because the percentage taken from class test is very little. but in jc, every class test counts. there is this pressure to do well for every test that you take, because it counts towards your ca grades which ultimately determines your final promotional results. and basically you are expected to perform consistently for the tests and stuff. consistently consulting teachers is also important especially since my results SUCKS with a capital s. omg. okay. next. 

3) it's okay to be emotional 

i guess i'm the kind of person who doesn't usually want to show the emotional side of me to others. in front of people, i always want to be seen as the one who is usually happy and just laughing you know. but this year have taught me that it is okay to be emotional, even if it's front of others. you can't always put on a tough front. there are bound to be emotional times. as for me, i felt like by far this year had been quite an emotional year for me, and i can't hide my emotions all the time. i've had sudden emotional feelings and broke down unexpectedly too (giving my friends a shock at the same time LOL). and speaking from experience, it really is okay to be emotional wherever you are. you can't pretend to be tough forever. or at least i can't.

4) shit happens, suck it up and deal with it
quote taken from seniors back in 2012 and i agree with it a whole lot. many things have happened this past year so far. happy things. and crappy things as well. since june or july onwards, things have not been really going the way i wanted, or expected them to be. it was a pretty down period, especially towards the end of the year, but i can't change anything. as from the quote, shit happens. suck it up and deal with it. get over it. i had to get over everything, though this led to me overthinking sometimes and being worried and stuff as usual. but well. talk to someone if you need. a listening ear to listen to everything that you have to say really really helps. it's like taking a load off your shoulders.

5) God is in control
this is pretty duh. but really, this year have really shown me so much, that God is in control, and i have to let go and let God. from being posted to pjc and throughout the year, there are times when i feel like giving up and i feel like i' not good enough, but God sees all the needs and He provides. He allowed me to be in the same school as vanessa, which is really encouraging especially since we see each other almost everyday and we just hug and talk for so long sometimes. He allowed me to do okay in promos and get promoted even though i had thoughts of retaining. and even though i do not really want to do A's next year, i know that this is God's plan and i just got to trust in Him. school things aside, i'm sure that all the changes that i have experienced this year happened for a reason and God wants me to learn something from them. so. God is in control.

so these are the 5 lessons that i have learnt throughout the course of this past year. i have definitely learnt a lot more, but i guess these 5 are what had impacted me the most in one way or another. 2015 have definitely been an eye-opening year where i have gained many insights and there is much to be reflected upon, but that will come at a later time.

so there you go guys, Joween's 5 lessons of 2015!

till next time x