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Sunday, 28 June 2015 || 12:42 pm

sooo recently i saw a quote which says "happiness starts with a h and ends with an s, but so does harry styles" WOAHHHHHHHHH right, i know. i don't even know what i'm doing with my life right now. we're heading into the last week of holidays, and i don't think i have done much revision, and i definitely feel that this year's june holidays was less productive than last year's june holidays, and i.... don't even know why.

on friday 19 June i was really really happy, i have no idea why, i was just happy i guess!!! HAHAHA it was almost a whole day spent in church. met dayna before heading to last day of DJ's class. had lunch with dayna and jay at kfc and we did a lot of catching up and updates about life and teens and campus since we're in different ministries now. and we walked back to church which was really really good exercise for me because i hardly exercised during the holidays HAHAH throughout the past three or so weeks of holidays i have gained fats and not knowledge. it should probably be the other way round. and i completed one lit essay in um... one and a half hours? but i didn't manage to do a math question and i got really angsty. i was so angry at myself for not being able to do that math question which i could do previously. then we went down to the second floor and it was cold. after awhile i went to the carpark to watch dayna crish martin jay and devin play frisbee. devin was so funny especially when he tried to catch the disk but failed HAHAH. i remembered laughing a lot in general while watching them play. and for midweek, we combined with the campus. for some weird reason or another, today's worship was so loud, it was so good! then we had sean doing a short lesson about DJ's class and we had games. with the campus. i was dreading it at first. but oh well. we were split into 10 groups. and for the teens sisters, i was in group 10 with illiona, emma and bev. and we were in the same group as joseph, jason, chris, steffi, darren, daniel anddddddd jeremy if i'm not wrong. out of 5 stations, we did 4 stations. for the first station we had to transfer balloons from one wall to another. for the second station, it was like the blanket game and it was fun because luckily i knew shermaine HAHAHA. and for the third game it was something like the squeezing game la. we were supposed to squeeze three times but when emma squeezed my hand once i immediately passed on the squeeze to darren. HAHAH. it was fun because we see which group had faster reaction and stuffs. and for the last game it was like musical chairs but on the floors with our hands. and that joseph lim ugh!!! it's okay. and we went to the third floor to witness jaden's baptism. he was in joey's team for retreat but was very very quiet. and i was there with tricia reminiscing her baptism because i was literally in lukas' shoes like sharing for the dude. HAHAH. okay. then afterwards it was fellowship!!! talked to sarah for a little little while (YAY) and then went to talk to jay joseph and (laugh at) tricia bc!!!! HAHAH and then talked to derrick afterwards. it had actually been a long time, maybe a year since i talked to him and that was a short chat only and on friday it was a little bit of talking and a little bit of laughing too because i think typical conversations with me would have to include laughter HAHAH, and julie and friends celebrated vivian's birthday and yea while walking down to the first floor, i saw jaden and i congratulated him from across the corridor kind of thing it was embarrassing, i was embarrassing but i doubt he even knows me so whatever and i don't know, i was happy at the end of the day HAHA :D it's good to be happy right.

i don't know what i did over the weekend to be honest, but i had pw meeting all the way at choa chu kang on saturday morning during the june holidays do you feel my pain!!!!!! yes, and then i went home and caught up on my sleep, i think i've been sleeping too much recently though, this is bad, really really bad. and at night i actually live-snapchatted eleanor!!!!! i miss that girl so so much it's been one and half years since india no words could describe me when i saw her live! LIVE!!!! i need to like skype her. HAHA but anyways she was going to new york with a couple of other disciples from london, like wow!? and i skyped xueqi for two hours at night.... i don't even know why i skyped that woman she probably misses me too much... yup, she does miss me too much HAHAH. and on sunday morning, the current and ex JC sisters met up for breakfast and a little game to get to know one another better. it was so cool because i know that these sisters are going through most likely the same things that i am going through and i should probably not complain too much. :) but at least these sisters are somewhat like a "support group" to me and we definitely know each other better after today, and i'm so glad to have this group of sisters beside me for the next two years or so. over this past weekend, there have been three teens baptism. THREE!!! jaden, zann and samuel, and i would say i am truly inspired by their baptism especially since it's been just over two years since i have been baptised, in june, too and when i was 15 so it's just pretty amazing la!!! those who were baptised after hyc gave me the feels because i truly know and understand how much hyc would have impacted their lives. even though the hyc that we attend might have been different, but the hyc feels are there. i so so so want to go to hyc again or maybe even go back to chennai with the other 120 disciples! wow, india hyc 2013 was legendary. it was amazing. it was an eye-opening experience and i am so grateful to God that i got the opportunity to go there and serve with disciples from all over the world (literally). speaking of hyc, i have yet to update my blog about hyc HAHA well this just shows how much of a procrastinator i am.

so now we head to the last week of the june holidays. time definitely just flew past, i'm definitely and absolutely not prepared for mid years. here's to a week of intense mugging and catching up with heap loads of readings and content. this post will probably be published at the end of the week so this is a brief overview of how my last week of june holidays will go/ went. i'm praying that it will be productive one and maybe the discipline in me will suddenly show up or something but here's how it goes.....

on monday morning, i went to get a haircut near our house. joey too. firstly because almost everybody is telling me that it's time for a haircut (HAHA) secondly because i also feel that it's time i get a haircut, thirdly because my hair was really really unhealthy after who-knows-how-long of not cutting or trimming my hair, and lastly because singapore is so so HOT!!! well if i let down my hair it only seems as if i cut 6 inches or less, but when i tie my hair up in a ponytail the difference in length is very very obvious okay!!!! so guys, yeah, i've cut my hair. :) then we went to school for lit consultation!!!! the last lit consultation before midyears which will be on wednesday together with math!! the stress is kicking in. but yet again, i think i'm the laziest and slackest JC student in singapore's all-time history sigh. and jay was so funny he was outside the library discussion room and he saw us inside and he waved and showed the peace sign HAHAHA guys, presenting to you the president of the ambassadors!!!! and after lit consultation, we went to ITE college west to do facial because mum's friend worked there holey my pimples hurt so much like owwwww ookay, ouch!!! i literally teared and now mum wants us to have haircut and facial every two months to keep it nice i'm like mum pls. HAHAHA. yeah.

went to the library to study on tuesday because i've got no plans and i really really need to study since i have literally no idea what i have done the past three weeks. so i was early and there was a queue and then i saw marcus and huiting and one or two PJ seniors i'm like woah. HAHAH and there were a bunch of JC kids there too. i went to study with alice but we sat at different tables so that we can focus better. then there was once one PJ-mate J1 sat beside me and she was doing the exact same revision set that i was doing and she like knows how to do everything and i'm there like skipping each and every question omg. times like this i question my decisions in life. HAHA. had lunch at foodcourt catching up with alice and we saw morE PJ people hehehehe. joey and kaiwen also came to the library a short while and they left early and i stayed until 6 freaking out about exam.....

wednesday was literally legitimately the most dreaded day of the week for me. because exams. ya know. mid years. we have two papers because of lit, so we were in school pretty early because dad drove us to cck. lit was the morning paper and well my whole clique found it difficult. the pc is about rest and hope i'm like what can you give me a noun...... and then we had 4 hours break before the next paper which was math and i was like yolo-ing but freaking out at the same time because i know how unprepared i am //sigh// so i redid a revision set. vanessa came to school quite early and me joey and her had a short time of prayer before the paper. i'm so so grateful to be in the same school as a fellow church mate!!! math blew my mind in a bad way ok bYE GRADES. i'm seriously bidding farewell to my marks sigh. and the sianest thing is that i was seated first row during both papers. and i do not, ii repeat, i do not like sitting at the front row during exams i feel so so so stressed. or maybe i just don't like exams as a whole oh well. but now i can finally say that half of lit and math is over!!!! but next week is gonna be hella intense cos all the H2 subjects....... brb crying. anyways after school i went back home and prepared to go to church for a sister's sleepover thingy. had dinner first and i packed my homework and jacket and that's basically it. but i regret not bringing my blanket along HAHA. i was supposed to meet julie at 7.30.... then changed to 7.45. and by 7.10, i was already on the train! HAHAH so early, so i alighted at yishun popular to buy a pen which was running out of ink. then i reached yck at around 7.45 and that woman came at 8. HAHAH if you were lucky enough to catch my snapchat, she's really funny. (oh, and sorry for the spam on snapchat that day HAHA) and we went to church together, it was like an impromptu spend time which got both of us feeling not-so-high but we now understand each other better :) we joined the sisters at the rooftop who were playing card games, then we played a drinking game which was really funny especially when we had to speak with an indian accent, and i just either kept silent or i laughed. HAHAHA and tricia came yay so proud of her!!!!!! at around 10, we went down to the m floor and we were joined by some campus sisters! YAY, the more the merrier!!!!!! afterwards we watched demonic i was super scared i clung onto julie and i went outside for like 5 minutes, even. HAHAH because those who didn't want to watch were outside playing cards so i watched them for like 5 minutes before going back in to continue watching the show, i don't even know what i'm doing to myself. HAHAH. tricia kept touching my leg which freaked me out and when crish arrived she touched my head and rub my hair and i swear i got a mini heart attack HAHAH. okay so by the time the show ended, it was around 11.30 i think, (we had a phone table to put all our phones there so i didn't know the exact time haha), and we gathered outside the harbor room for a sharing by rebecca. we first introduced ourselves, saying our names, an animal that we want to be, and what we want to be when we grow up. there was around 20+- sisters i think? so cool HAHAH. yeah then afterwards we played a couple of rounds of blow wind blow to (duh) get us to mix around before we started the actual sharing. the sharing was somewhat related to the talk we had at teens retreat, about bonding the sisters and having a close-knit ministry which we all really wanted so much. and this sleepover thing is probably one of the first few steps to bond the sisters in the teens and campus yay!! we had sharings by rebecca, rachel, renee, maria and sarah, something about how to step out of our comfort zone whether we are introverts or extroverts to love everyone. i guess it was a really good and useful sharing!! and by the time the sharing ended, it was likE 1???? HAHAHA and then it was free and easy. me tricia crish julie and alicia went to giant to get some drinks and food and we acted like we're on a mission //whaaaaaaat// HAHA things you do at 1am with your friends... then we headed to the m floor. julie and alicia went to shower and crish played mafia and me and tricia just slacked around. and at around 1.45 or something, we went to the temasek room to study, the five of us except tricia HAHA. i was doing econs notes, alicia did amath i think (wow), crish did econs and julie kept changing her worksheets. HAHA and her ss homework is actually our prelim paper last year omg bad memories because i know i failed both ss prelim papers so badly HAHAH. and when julie decided that she wanted to do ss, she fell asleep after writing the question number HAHA. at around 3 ish crish played songs which were so old!!! not very old, but songs that we listened to like 3-5 years ago maybe?!?!?! and i was like "omg omg this song" "omg crish this omg" HAHAH then julie woke up at 3.30 i think (which is probably the time most people went to sleep) and that's when me and crish got high trying to rap to lighters and if you saw our snapchat, you will know what 3am with my friends does to me. well so basically the whole 2 or so hours, i was writing econs notes and my handwriting was so nice???? it was really nice ok HAHAH sorry. and at 4 i KO-ed and slept. julie so sweet she actually borrowed crish's blanket which she wasn't using and put it over me which gave me a shock omg???? JULIE SO SWEETS <3 I kept waking up every hour though. at 5am because crish needed her blanket and then she was snapchatting and i woke up HAHA. then at 6am because it was cold? then i moved to sleep at the table there. and at 7am i woke up because my legs and hands were vERY NUMB!!! only me and tricia were awake though. then we decided to sleep somemore until 7.30 and then both of us packed our bags and left church at around 7.45 like that while everybody else were still sleeping. i bought waffle, i think the aunty knows what i want already actually HAHA and while waiting for 85 and while i ate my waffle, we talked. and we talked about puberty goals like whaaaaaaaaaat.

and thursday yeah i only had less than 3 hours of sleep and i went to meet ku at woodlands. we were supposed to meet at 9 and that woman came at 9.20 excuse you. and we were going to rp to study and she was wearing an np shirt i'm like are you serious. HAHA. at 9.30 ish there were so many rp people going back to school and i was like a w k w a r d but we tried blending in with the poly crowd HAHA. thankfully, the library was quite empty. and it was quite empty until around 5 like that. we had lunch at the cafe in the library when we talked about ku's past HAHA and after lunch we suddenly became art students. if you saw my story on snapchat, you'll know HAHAH. today was quite productive!!! 10 hours in rp library, doing econs notes, 1 lit essay, and sea hist content. like literally, from 1.45am-4am, then 9.45am-7.10pm with around 1.5-2 hours of break?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? or maybe more but i actually felt like i did a lot of work today HAHA but the real question is, did anything get into my brain? hmm.... it's only thursday, i mean, already thursday, and i remember telling myself some time last week to make this week fulfilling, and so far, it had been really fulfilling, especially last night HEHE. amazingly, shockingly, surprisingly, i did not sleep in the afternoon. it is 10.46pm as i type this and i'm not tired??? i did sleep for around 10 minutes at the rp library and probably during the bus ride from punggol to yishun but. HAHAH it's still weird but whatever. i finally finally F I N A L L Y met ku omg been so long love ya xoxoxoxoxoxoxox (im not ghey realleh)

friday!!!! it's the last friday of the june holidays i still don't get how time passes so quickly but anyway. went to the library today with alice and yuting also came!!!!! today's agenda was so content-heavy because i literally did history the whole day, like SEA history and international history. i probably did a lot of readings, and hence i felt that today wasn't really very productive like i read up, but the actual amount of content that goes into my head is ???? had lunch with the two of them plus marcus plus xuan ying (i dont know how to spell sorreh) #pjpride HAHAHA and we saw cecilia at the traffic light but she didn't see me at first <insignificant> HAHA jk but she put down her bangs!!!!! and after lunch i got double chocolate frappe and oreo cheesecake like whaaaaat hashtag fats alright i know. and went back to the library to continue studying. then this guy with super neat handwriting came and sit opposite me and he was doing H2 lit AOI and he was so focused doing his work i'm so shocked because i don't even want to do lit sometimes (actually most times).... but anyways, i studied till 6.10 and whoops, was late to meet dayna and joey to go to nex. so we headed to nex and it was so crowded that me and dayna concluded that we hate people HAHA. we had to get dinner but all the lines were so long so we decided to have macs and we saw yao le!!!!! then we headed up to the rooftop outside the library where we met up with the other DJC people like janelle marissa xueyi davis tianyi and sister joel caryl theophilia regine and vanessa, so in total there were 13 DJC people yay!!! :D we started eating at around 7.45, just having dinner and talking hahah. and at around 8.20-ish i think, we played the mrt game to keep everyone awake HAHA and somehow it was so funny!!! i got hit by dayna and vanessa so hard my thighs were red after the first round, and the opposite side was so dead while our side was hitting one another like mad. it was crazy fun and funny!!! HAHA then suddenly this guy was dared by his friends and he came to sit in the middle of the circle and started talking to us randomly LOL. like asking if we were from JC and guessing our JCs and stuff.... and after he left we continued playing the mrt game for a couple of rounds HAHA. afterwards, we numbered ourselves off since we were in a circle with quite a big group, into our prayer groups. i was with regine tianyi davis caryl and marissa, and we chatted awhile before i started off the prayer chain (BECAUSE OF SPIN THE BOTTLE HAHA) then at 9.30 we joined back together (we initially planned to meet back at 9.15 LOL), and we took selfies and group photos. then dayna recognised these 2 RJ guys and wanted to evangelise but she just didn't HAHA then afterwards when we were going down the escalator she saw ANOTHER FRIEND who recognised her too and she said hi and she softly asked him "do you wanna go to church" but it was drowned in mine, joey's and vanessa's laughter HAHA but dayna said he's cool HAHAHA. okay. me joey vanessa and dayna got sogurt (YES IT WAS STILL OPEN) while joel davis caryl marissa and xueyi hang around to talk (and wait for us omg) HAHAH and we went back together slowly and a mosquito bite bit on my eyelid i'm unhappy now. :( HAHAH but anyways it was a good evening and i'm so so grateful for this JC ministry, and so encouraged today that the JC peeps met up despite most of us having exams next week and although we really should be studying. but yay! :D

and then saturday arrives in a blink of an eye. my dgroup was gonna have a date later in the afternoon and i was supposed to meet crish at 8 at bishan mrt but i arrived at 8.20 and crish came at 8.48 i'm like what?!?!?! why is everybody being late on me?!?!?!!? HAHAH okay anyways we wanted to study at starbucks but then no studying during weekends. then we went to mosburger hoping they wouldn't kick us out, and they didn't until like lunch time around 1.30pm+-. so both of us were doing SEA history because it was my exam on monday and also because she had not touch her SEA hist at all despite her exams being over already. it was so funny cos i snapchatted so much?!?!? if you added me on snapchat you will know HAHA. she told me that an important person in vietnam was syngman rhee. LIKE HELLO VIETNAM AND SYNGMAN RHEE HAHAHAHA i was laughing so hard omg. i felt like we did work for 10 minutes, then we talked for half an hour and this continued all the way till lunch time but we were quite productive okay!!!! i even retied crish's braid 3 times which took me half an hour HAHAH. and then when we got kicked out we went to hunt for light food. we got my dessert story and 10 of those balls i suddenly forgot the name HAHAH. we headed to the rooftop to eat our food and then we suddenly saw this group of 10-20 poly people, and all of their hair were brown omg. the difference between jc and poly kids. HAHAH and then it took me like 5 minutes to realise that one of them was mindy, and i waved bye to her as me and crish left to get koi. and then we got koi and sat at like one of the parapets outside the mrt station ready to leave, then i remembered that CRISH was supposed to get cups. HAHAHA like crish actually forgot about it and i reminded her HAHAHAH it was so funny we rushed down to ntuc to get cups and while queuing up to pay for the cups both of us were feeling so scared and nervous even my hands got cold not funneh. but yeah after we got the cups we went to botanic gardens mrt to meet janelle derrick neal joel arthur (who was late) and marissa (who was later). lucky we were not late HAHAH and then neal and crish started talking and neal started like insulting crish and it was so funny i think i laughed too loudly.... at the mrt station. then at around 3.20ish we went to botanic garden and found a spot and set the mats and talked and played card games like indian poker and german bridge. HAHAH we played german bridge in pairs and i didn't know how to play it actually but with the help of derrick, we didn't get last. HAHAHA. idk why but it was so funny during the games. HAHAH. like during indian poker, marissa had this really high card, and crish told her that she should change her card but janelle was like "you shouldn't change your card" HAHAHA. the losing pair, neal and marissa had to take a selfie with a random stranger. then afterwards we split, me and derrick, crish and joel, janelle and arthur, marissa and neal. it was a pretty good talk i should say, because i used to be so intimidated by derrick cos he's like the cool kid and i'm not HAHAH. we talked (and i laughed) for like an hour plus and it was great getting to know derrick better, and it was cool too having him as my first date, it was encouraging! yaz it was a reverse date for marissa janelle and crish but not for me okayyyyyyy. then afterwards we took some pictures at the pond there and headed to church together for a saturday service. :)) and gosh, we were so tired hahah, headed home with dayna and denise!!!

it's like sunday AFTERNOON now, i woke up at like 11.30 and school is reopening this week with exams to kick off the semester and i am so so so so so so so so so sian right now thinking about it okay. this semester is gonna be a hell of a ride as i need to buck up a lot for promos in like what, three months' time? but this last week of holidays had indeed been fulfilling. better than the first three weeks when i don't even know what i was doing with my life. i went to the library and was productive, and met church people for 4 consecutive days this week which was really really encouraging. and my quiet time also got better this week. :) so now, hopefully and prayerfully, i can get this week over and done with. LET GO AND LET GOD.

till next time. x
(i got no photos throughout this week because the photos are in my phone and because i'm lazy so byE time to hit the books)

nothing

Thursday, 18 June 2015 || 4:57 pm

these few days are gonna suck so much as i legitimately start studying for my upcoming mid year examinations. i know i should have started studying earlier in the year ugh i really just have to be and keep being disciplined just like athletes -- i really really admire athletes' discipline so much no joke, waking up early to train, some even juggling sports and studies at the same time, and i only have to focus on studies, especially since i've quit dancing a few years back which i still feel pretty sad about hahaha. i procrastinate and laze around too much for a school-going student tbh. i need motivation i need inspiration i need discipline. okay. i've got math and litp1 exam next wednesday, even though it's supposedly the june holidays, and the rest of the papers will be when school reopens, which is also pretty soon. but lucky for me i don't take chinese so i have an extra day for revision omg and it's these days that i am so glad i took and passed my O's higher chinese. thank God really!!!! you may think i'm over-reacting because it's just mid years but i honestly don't feel prepared at all. even though i have consulted my teachers many many times but i'm just not confident at all especially since it's only been 5 months since i stepped foot into junior college and learnt new subjects that i've never taken before sigh. and this is why i hate my laziness. i really need daily reminders to stay disciplined.

on a sidenote i suddenly miss dancing so so much. it's been like 2 years since i quit ballet after 10+ years of learning ballet and i literally don't do any form of dancing now that my cca isn't dancing. i miss my ballet friends and cchyid and just being with a group of friends that i kinda grew up with. this whole week, Jia Juan have been going out every single day for extra STD classes and she has like a future for dancing? and she's currently in RAD grade 7, which is when we quit ballet ah sigh. and within these past 2 years i have definitely gained a lot of weight and i have also definitely lost my flexibility. i don't think i can do a split now and i highly doubt that i'm able to do a cartwheel, or even a qianfan. sigh i really miss dance days!!!! i guess i don't have the dancer face, many people say that they can't tell that i used to be a dancer. maybe it's because i've grown fatter HAHA oh well i should probably just focus on my studies now.

and now that SEA games are over, i think there should be less distraction for me, except 118. HAHAH the past 2 weeks had been spent mostly watching the SEA games and i don't even know why, even though i'm not a sports person, never was and never will be a sports person. sooooo i just admire people who do sports, really, i do, because i know that i can never be like them, especially i'm already having problems in PE class trying to find excuses to skip PE but always fail. oh well, PE is the only way i can keep fit now that i've quit dance, right?

i do not know what is wrong with me but one of the days this past week, i missed otrasg so so so much. because one direction and singapore only come together in one sentence and that was on 11 march 2015 and sadly it's over. i can't believe it's been what, 3 months plus since we rocked out at the sports hub, with a 30k attendance, probably the biggest concert in singapore, and the most talked about event on twitter in singapore, like hello i cannot believe my eyes, i actually saw harold edward styles in real life in singapore!!! for one hour and 45 minutes. my biggest regret was not getting standing tickets still, but. liam louis niall harry and zayn in singapore. even though the show started like one hour late BUT you know!!!!!! i don't even know what i'm doing to myself now listening to one direction playlist. stop laughing at me listening to a mainstream band okay, their harmonising is so so so good better than yours so shush and stop judging me.

okay i'm sorry it's like already almost 5pm already i should really go and study and get some stuff into my little pea brain. i'd probably rant about school and homework and my decision of coming to JC soon in another post hahaha for now, i hope i can survive midyears.

till next time. x

retreat!!!

Monday, 15 June 2015 || 4:59 pm

so this past weekend from 12 to 13 June was the annual teens retreat, and since the JC ministry is part of the teens ministry still, i guess it's a privilege to be part of this retreat for the third year since sometimes the JC ministry is not in the teens and not in the campus kind of thing. to be honest, i wasn't looking forward to the retreat at all, i felt kinda bored, i packed on the day itself, and i felt no hype. at all. but well, who would have known that it was probably going to be the best weekend of the month, right. :) i guess, since the other weekends this month would be spent revising and studying or else slacking. and so this year's theme is "in the world, but not of the world" hashtag deeeeeeeeeeeeep. okay so here's how it went.

had lunch before heading to church because if not i would probably have had a growling stomach for the rest of the day and died. hah. but well i looked like i was going on a week-long camp because i had such a big bag with me but no it's only 2d1n ok hahaha. so the retreat started a little late because we had to wait for some people who were late to come. oh oh, and it was super funny seeing eunice and joseph teo and julie's reactions when they saw us and when we told them that we were actually going for retreat because yea for the oast two weeks we lied to them and told them that we would be going overseas HAHAHA and so we started at around 2-ish for opening worship led by nathan, good job there friend!!!!!! :) then they took away our phones so we bid farewell to our phones and then we knew our groups. i was in group 2 with donovan ray jonathan sean philip joel carul alicia jogi youxuan and ashley so there's 12 of us. before this retreat i never really talked to anyone in my group but i guess God wants me to get out of my clique so its ok all is good. so the first thing we did in our groups was designing a band as a group. sadly for joel, our group band wasn't yellow hahaha. and after an awkward session, we played "i have ever" within our groups, and then among the groups, and yay we won!!! we are a group of people who have done many weird and interesting things la okay basically. then afterwards we played eagle termite rhino (i think) of which we all had to walk around and lie down, not stand on chairs and stick on the walls whenever one of those animals are called basically ahahah it was intense and i was like "uhhhhh" most of the time because i was probably still not in the camp mood. then we moved on the the third game which was more of a quiz of the world and the bible. i think our team did not bad HAHA but i do not know how many oceans are there in the world ok time to go read up on the world and stuffs. and it was super funny calling out joseph's and nick's chinese names when they went up for the quiz game and they just went like "OI" HAHAHA. sorry friends love all. and before we knew it, it was dinner time. i thought that tricia came at 4+, but she actually came at 5+ to 6 so i was like woah, because i didn't have my phone with me and so most of the time i didn't know the time. dinner was in our groups and it was still awkward for me (yes, i am a socially awkward person i can cry) but okay. afterwards i went to talk to julie and dayna and tricia and woah, julie gives the best massages hahaha. and then it was time for lesson one by uncle vincent. before that we had worship and this time led by nick who was super nervous and as expected, sung still, but good job there my felllow asian-eyed friend. after the lesson we got into our dgroup and before we got into an actual discussion about the lesson we talked about something else really really awkward and i don't even know what to do now. but then sometimes it was just so funny i burst out laughing i think i disturbed other dgroups but then it really was funnily awkward or awkwardly funny so!!!!! okay then after that really awkward-funny thing we got into our actual discussions and sharings and the jc groups are the last to end hahahaha. afterwards we went to shower and yay i feel so clean now and we went outside and watched people play mafia because we were bored and we didn't have our phones with us and they ate cup noodles and crackers and nick's m&ms until it was lights out at 11.30. soooooooo we actually made our own forts and stuff so that we could sleep more comfortably then rebecca came in and told us to all sleep on the floor. okay, nore of encouraged us to sleep on the floor so in the end we formed two rows and most of the sisters were in the two rows. then they formed a circle and they played mafia and i just sat one side and watched them play and ate my biscuits and went out a couple of times to throw rubbish and refill my water. like after i refilled my water i saw joseph and he was like "eh you all sleep already ah" then i'm like "nooo??? who sleeps so early HAHAH but we're all sleeping in a row cos we're cool" hahahah and after that game of mafia, we had a little talk about how we felt about the teens ministry and the sisters and we also voiced our opinions and suggestions on what we want the sisters and teens to be like and stuff. i guess, this was what me joey dayna and vanessa were talking about one week before. we literally felt that the hype 3 years ago was gone, and we wanted to bring the hype back so so much. so yeah we talked all the way till 1.30 ish i think and i ko-ed because i was so tired.

who knew that very soon it was like 6.30 already. i don't even know what time i fell asleep because i kept hearing kyla and crish talking. but then ya we eventually got up and washed up and prepared for a long walk to punggol waterway. and at waterway, we had our breakfast first thing, and then we had worship and devo led by davis and bev from DJC YAYYYY djc ok yay hahaha. afterwards we split into our game groups for prayer and it was okay i guess we shared about how we felt about the sharings and some of us prayed because there wasn't much time left. we then gathered for a brifing for the telematch. so from the bridge, 2 people had to be blindfolded and another 2 pairs of people had to have their legs and hands tied together, and they had to walk to a far far place. me walking normally already had a little but of problems walking on the slope but luckily our group made it and i was cheering for tricia all the way at the back hahahah. then for the next game, there were tamil newspaper cut outs and we had to piece them together in the shortest time possible. it was so intense i think i was sweating just kneeling down there trying to fix the pieces and taping here and there because everybody was just shouting "TAPE! TAPE! TAPE HERE HERE TAPE HERE!" hahah but i think my group did not bad???? then for the next game each group was given 6 toilet paper rolls and we had to wrap one sister and one brother into a mummy. and for us, we had caryl and we just tell her to turn as we wrapped toilet paper around her and taped to secure the toilet paper HAHAH. then they had to do some fashion walk or something and try to tear off the opponent's toilet paper i.... just stood aside because too intense hahahah. then it was a waterbomb game where two pairs of each team are sent to throw waterbombs at each other increasing the distance after each throw and they must not burst the waterbomb and obviously i did not go....... because ya you know i cant catch a ball and what more a waterbomb???? and the last game was basically a list of tasks to doby a time. so yeah it was like take a group selfie and then climb a tree and form the theme using natural elements and take pictures with a stranger and go to punggol mrt? we walked all the way to the mrt and i was so so tired. there was this running group and walking group and obviously i'm in the walking group because i was so tired. and then the running group was all the way in front i had to shout to them to tell them to wait up and after i shouted, joel was like "wow that was loud" hahahah thanks jo! and when we went back to church i was literally dying already. but yeah it was lunch and we sat in a circle and talked and just laughed at dayna who randomly sang songs omg so grateful for these kind of friends in my life who can just make me laugh LIKE THAT. after lunch, the sisters had one class, brothers had one class, and JC had another class YAS!!! ok not really a class but. so we were in one of the kids kingdom rooms and we had our own worship and it was quite good cos we were in a circle and we just sang a couple of songs. so for DJC it was sharings by matthew philix and renee in an interview style like we ask them questions about JC life and everything, and they answer. personally, i felt that it was a very useful sharing session i actually feel motivated to study and take my relationship with God higher despite this hectic JC life. and now i just gotta be disciplined and stay disciplined!!!! ugh stress still. but okay. the jc lesson ended a little late and the next game was supposed to start soon but we sneaked a selfie before heading to play the games hahah. the last games of all was scrutineyes and it was a really really long game and well it tests your english vocabulary which is absent in me basically. and then it was dinner time, it was bbq and buffet and our group gathered to dicuss the play. i only ate a little bit, but our group was not prepared at all and the time given to prepare was just too short. or maybe my group did not make good use of the time given but oh well. and traditionally, we ended off the retreat with plays by different groups and i definitely did have a good laugh just looking at dayna rowing the boat, joseph making roti prata and speaking with the indian accent, and crish trying to speak in chinese. HAHAH. yes i laughed like crazy. and after all the skits while the scores were being tallied, it was time for sharings by different people. and surprisingly, the first person who volunteered to share was joseph and i was like "WAH LIN FOONG" hahahaha sorry joseph!!!!! and then i did not know what went through my head but i went up to share, too, ya know just trying ti be encouraging. hahahaha. and well overall, our group got second place, not bad at all, team 2!!!!! and afterwards it was cleaning up and the typical photo taking sessions and we all got our phones back. and everyone was just looking at their phones zzzzz sian hahahah. but yeah it was all good after all. :)

i guess these past two days were pretty okay and now that i'm back home it's time to catch up with my studies and books which i have not touched at all since 1998. math and lit p1 midyears next week and i have to do my readings and everything else. ((well good thing the sea games are ending soon HAHA)). it's june it's time to buck up. no more slacking. retreat pictures are on facebook and did you see joseph's instagram HAHAHAH yay okay time to hit the books.

till next time x

weekend in indonesia!!

Monday, 1 June 2015 || 8:57 pm

hello guys i just came back from a weekend in indonesia yesterday!!! and by right, i'm supposed to be doing my work and revising for week 11 of school, but by left, that is probably not gonna happen until a few hours later. so basically, i'm screwed. hahaha. guys, seriously, do NOT learn from me i am a terrible horrible person who simply procrastinates too damn much. omg i really gotta get my shit together (something i've been telling myself since forever but oh well).

so on friday we had our gp paper (mid years ya) and i would not like to answer any questions regarding it. then afterwards we chionged home and shower and packed a few little stuff and then we went to harbour front like luckily we were not late omg. we were one of the first few to get on the ferry apparently hahaha and vvvvv soon at like 3pm we were on our way to balai!!!! tbh i don't even know when was the last time i went there so it's definitely been very very long like at least two years???? the ferry ride was pretty fast actually, like around 1 and a half hours i didn't even finish listening to my playlist hahaha. and ya them indonesia feels!!!!!!!!!!!!! such a long long time since i've stepped foot on this island of indonesia!!! the heat sucked big time though. no difference with the temperature in singapore but still ya i was sweating buckets just by sitting down!!! so it was a shophouse place as always and i went upstairs to see the 3 weeks old cousin!!! he's so tiny and so cute and adorable and just tiny generally omg ya and jing xuan was there and she actually called me (like usually she just keeps her mouth hut when i'm around la) hahaha so cute i think i spent a good like 15 minutes admiring the baby. and then i do not know what happened, and ding cong and yan ping and edo came back (probably from tuition or something) ya they are like 9 and 7 and 3 years old and they have tuition and i'm like whAt!!!!!! ya and they actually came to find us i am so surprised because i remember very clearly they used to avoid us. i guess they just want some entertainment which is why they come and find us! HAHAHA and guys i cannot emphasise how cute edo and jing xuan are ok their real names are richedo and richesta ( i think) and ya so cute la ok. and then we wemt to have dinner at some place near a beach and we could literally see the singapore night sky because singapore is just bright, and no joke, tanjung balai is very near to singapore, even on the map!!! so ya so close yet so far from home. dinner was vvvv good i forgot what we had but indo food is da bomb basically. and after a very very full dinner we went to this quite nice place that have the word "karimun" and where we could see singapore, too. and we took some pictures before heading home. and at home we played with edo and jingxuan and yanping and ding cong and omg words cannot express how cute edo is seriously!!!!!!! entertaining 4 kids with an average age gap of 10 years is vvv tiring just saying. slept at like 12+ cos i was seriously very tired.

woke up at 6+am singapore time, got me 10 years to wake up and we had to wake up early because mum wanted to make us run but then we ended up walking instead because i simply do not have the feels to run ok. the sky was nice and the sea breeze was nice too!!! yanping and dingcong cycled hahaha and then afterwards we went back home and then we went to a market to buy our breakfast!! it was yumz nasi lemak and my fave pancake and kueh!!!!! and by then it was only 10+ (time seriously passed very slowly here) (or maybe its just me). yah and i decided to sleep from 11.30-1 and so i told dingcong who wanted to play, to come wake me up at 1 instead. who knew time would pass so quickly right.... he came exactly at 1pm and woke me up and i'm just like omg i want my sleep back because i was actually still tired. but then edo came in and i was like "EH EDO LAI LAI" cos he's just so cute la ok!! and then we played with the 4 kids and joey just slep for a very long while. but ya we selfied too and edo is such a poser at like, 2 years old??????? seriously the way he poses though!!!!!! i think he will be zilian in future HAHAH just a random thought aye. we had noodles for late lunch which was seriously so good and mangoes that were so sweet and we played somemore. then afterwards we went to have dinner and dayum all the dishes were spicy but then its so so so nice!! we had crab and bbq fish and kang kong and other vegetables and stuff dang it was so good i wanna have indo food f O R E V E R !!! even the otah was super nice ok!!! and it was so funny seeing the cousins not being able to handle spicy food HAHAH. but yea it was a really full and good dinner i cannot emphasise how much i love indonesian food as long as it is not very spicy la!!! then the kids went back home and we went back home too because i was honestly very tired, like i don't even know why. and mother and her two brothers went to buy satay while we showered. i think yanping and dingcong ko-ed cos we never saw them after we came back home. but then edo and jingxuan came to our room to find us!!!! OMG ADORABLE LITTLE KIDDOS ya i think i said this before but i'm gonna say this again the last time we saw edo he was botak and he couldn't walk on his own and he couldn't even talk!!!!! and now he actually came to look for us after he showered!!! HAAHAH cutie, right? and then we took more pictures because must seize the opportunity they will probably avoid me in the future idk. and i TRIED communicating with them in bahasa. well the 2 weeks in jakarta last year taught me simple bahasa and so A for effort, okay? hahah they vv cute though like some stuff they can't say in chinese and they will say in bahasa and i'll be like "sorry i don't know what you're saying" so ya HAHAHA. and then we had satay yay!!!! balai satay is da bomb ok!!!! and then the adults went to their rooms and so there's the kids left in the living room and we played with the two most adorable kids in the whole universe. it's so funny cos when we laugh about edo's hair or poses he will be like "BU YAO XIAO!!!" i think he's shy HAHAHAH. i don't know why, they were super active, and i was super tired, so i went to sleep earlier and somehow joey managed to entertain them for a couple more minutes than i did before telling them that it was time to sleep. soooooooooooooooooo ya.

i do not know how long i slept for but what i do know is that i needed to wake up because i had to pee really badly. and then i tried to go back to sleep but then yanping and dingcong came in wanting to be entertained hahahah. anyways mum went out early to get breakfast and she bought kueh, pancake, meesiam (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), noodles and other stuff and i ate my fill because it was my last meal in balai until another year or so. ahhhhh. and we played with yanping and dingcong or more like they were threatening us with our own phones and stuff but oh well life is good, probably a good form of exercise at home yea????? and our bags were so heavy with koropok and packed meesiam, pancake, kueh and nasi lemak. well, you gotta bring a taste of indonesia back home ya know. and when i went to say bye to jingxuan and edo i went to their room and edo was showering he was so shy to sqay bye but ok so cute still HAHAHA and by noon, we were on our way back to singapore.

well i guess the whole time in indonesia was spent either eating, sleeping or playing with the kids. it was a good weekend away from home and all the stuffs that's happening i guess. i mean nobody really cares. but yea its monday night now there's week 11 this coming week and i really haven't done anything sooooooo

till next time x