Joween
25 & dreaming.

//carpe diem//

better known as joweeeeen. your typical singapore girl. searching for happiness. quite a sentimental person who appreciates cards and letters a lot. crazy at times and pretty emotional. has a contagious laughter and a twin too. older every 21 march. insecure, annoying and always overthinking. shy and quiet, or outgoing and loud. afraid to trust, but dare to dream. loves long hugs, heart to heart talks, sincere text messages and reading handwritten cards. imagining things that will never happen. always setting high hopes and getting disappointed in the end. figuring life out every single day.

9 June 2013, the best day of my life. Live like Jesus, live with Jesus and live for Jesus.
"For nothing is impossible with God."-Luke1:37♥

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today, the teens had bibletalk in their respective groups. and this is probably gonna be my last bibletalk in the west group because we'd be knowing our posting results on thursday and then afterwards i'd go to the jc ministry or campus, depending on where i'm posted to. and this will be another part okay. so bibletalk today was at serangoon for the first time cos we'd usually have our bibletalk at the west or north so, first time. we had it at uncle edmund's place and amber and kelsey are so cute ok hahaha. first we played pictionary and it was quite funny and epic i guess i can't explain how because it's just like that okay. HAHAHA. and then we had the bible discussion and i was pleasantly surprised because the sec3s were actually quite spontaneous and it was totally different compared to the last bibletalk we had. then we had some food and it was a short fellowship time and i was kinda awkward (i hate myself for that) and then we had 3 games of mafia with close to 20 people it was so funny because joseph and chelsia kept wanting people to kill them so that they can "use their phones" and joseph is just funny. and bibletalk ended at 6.30 instead of 6 hahaha. 

posting results on thursday and i'm feeling a tad bit nervous i don't even know why. (by the way, last day of work was yesterday yay) and then from next week onwards i'd move on to a different ministry. 2 years in the teens is over in a blink of an eye, literally. i don't know what i feel about moving on from the teens ministry, because the past 2 years had been quite fun, got to make new friendships, and i also made Jesus the Lord of my life back in 2013. also, my batch would be splitting up, some will go to the JC ministry and the rest, to the campus. it's so so hard to split up with this amazing group of people whom i grew up with. especially since we got close only quite recently when we had a weekly spurs devo before our major exams, then the spurs bbq and spurs camp even!!! and our batch is filled with many different kind of people, there's funny people, hardworking people, lazy people all of different heights. :) the last few months of 2014 have made me love my batch so much i am definitely gonna miss this group of people so very much when we split. :(
((okay this was supposed to be posted on 24/1/15 saturday so))

sunday 25/1/15 sermon by will archer which was kind of similar to the lesson he gave us on friday. and he really inspires me so much because he desires to be a great disciple sigh joween time to change. anyways eunice, a sec3 teen whom i said hi to on friday(HAHA) got baptised today!!! and went to lunch at kfc with crish dayna celine kyla bantzu joey nathan nick jared (and tricia and clement and ray and cedric who sat at another table cos there was not enough seats). this would be like my last lunch with them before school starts. sIGH OMG. then some of us walked back to church because i dont know who's brilliant idea was it to do so and we played board games. we played saboteur (me joey nick nathan crish bantzu agnes eunice and one/two more people) and i still do not know how to play that game so ummmm...... me joey crish nathan and nick played until like 5++++ HAHAHA and it was so funny in a way that cannot be explained, like the game got us all so agitated because we trusted the wrong people HAHAHA. and nick kept singing blank space cos he said it was addictive and then i caught myself singing too omg nick please!!! yeah it was an awkward yet fun day today!! ps brianna is in singapore!!!!!!!!!!!

so now........ i have no idea what to do. i do not want school to start like can i rewind back to the week when O's just ended and i literally went out the whole week and i didn't really have to care about results or anything else. i'm probably gonna be spending tomorrow catching up on my sleep (because i am such a pig really) and clearing up my secondary school stuff and prep myself for the year. and on wednesday, i'll finally be going out with the school friends HAHAHA but we do not know where we are going yet um so. and on friday (after reg if i go to jc) i'll be meeting up with the ku!!! i really want to see her with short hair though HAHAHA. so basically if i'm posted to a junior college, this is the last week of holidays. and afterwards, i am married to books ok. i really can't be lazy anymore like the past 4 years omg.

i miss chung cheng. in a way. ok this post is so messed up but i dont care ok no one really reads it anyways. like the people i met there. i have met a few groups of friends whom i can be myself with and i truly miss them all so much. dance clique and saikang warriors and the class clique. i miss saikang warriors aka sc clique aka retards because we have literally gone through a lot together? from malaysia camp to guangzhou to sumatra to most of us being in EXCO. these few camps have made us closer together and i really really like this group of people because they are funny and they can make me laugh a lot HAHAHA. dance clique just make my dance days really. it probably started out from syf and we just got really close and we don't always have group outings because confirm will have people pangseh one hmmmmm and it's really cool how 5 of us are older and 4 of us are younger like we just click this well hehe miss dancing with ya'll and all the lame jokes!!! and the class clique basically yuting alice and minray!!! i am so truly grateful for the three of you especially during the last year in cchy when i felt kinda left out in class and stuff and somehow the four of us ended up together and we always always always talk and laugh a lot and alice always cause me to get scolded by teachers because she's my entertainer HAHAH. the last year in cchy had definitely been the best especially in class because of the 3 of you. :)

okay let's talk hyc. as most of my friends would know, i went to hyc chennai back in 2013 and it was truly the best two weeks of my life especially in that year. and in 2014 i would probably have annoyed many of my friends by talking about hyc so i am so sorry my friends!!!! there will be a hyc in june in jakarta and i really really want to go to that hyc because i may have fallen in love with indonesia?!?!?!? yeah we have friends there who may go to hyc too and i just really want my life to get impacted again like back in 2013. i want to make new friends and get inspired by their faith. i want to serve the less fortunate along with like-minded people. there have been many testimonies of people's life being changed after a hyc and i know my life has changed in 2013 and i want to change more now. or maybe i can just save up a few years and go to a hyc in the US hehe.

and talking about how 2013 is two years ago?? time flies. i'm physically turning 17 in a few months'time and it's gonna be 2 years since i was baptised!!! i would say from 2013 till now, many many things have changed. both in school and at church. one thing in common that has changed, i should say is my friendship with people. okay, i know my grades in high school has been consistently bad, but i have made friends with people that make me laugh naturally. and in church too during the two years in teens i have made new friends and formed new friendships with the teens both one year older and one year younger than me hahaha. //appreciation post for my church friends// tricia and dayna and crish for being the funny and weird people that you are!! being a form of entertainment and just your presence can make me feel at ease most times. :) hopefully we'll stay in the teens ministry this year and that our friendship can grow even stronger and i hope that tricia and crish can grow as tall as dayna one day yay!! elysia, my childhood friend and also one of my best friends. i admire how disciplined you are and you're gonna go to the campus. :( i will miss you so so much i truly enjoyed most of the two weeks spent with you in jakarta last december and even though we are not as close as before, i'm sure that our friendship can continue forever in the kingdom!! the west, my bibletalk group. probably the only few people who have seen the wild side of me especially when i laugh hahaha but i am so glad that the people in cloud9 are really friendly and easy to talk to. i will miss you small kids so much!!! and hmm nathan? well our friendship has come a looooong way since 2012 when we were actually self-claimed bffs hahaha and i don't know what happened in between till now, but today we have a pretty weird and unique friendship hahah. i guess so far nathan's the only one who can stand my excited and nervous feels especially when i spam and when i'm annoying but he doesn't think so which is good hahaha and now he's also one of my bestfriends in church and i'm just really really grateful for this weird and awkward and unique friendship that we have!!! hopefully we'll still be close when i'm out of the teens ministry ya!! i feel so blessed with the friends i have in church.

so there's a 68.301% chance that i'm going jc so i really need to get those studying feels back again because i really really can't be lazy anymore sigh joween pls buck up ya ok i am currently finding ways to motivate myself to study hard hahaha. and i'm really thinking of joining a cca which is not very tiring and stuff idk la omg decisions, decisions.

i guess i'll just stop here for today. typing most things out have helped me feel a little better i guess, but i can't just reveal everything here hahaha oh well, until something interesting happens again!