let the good times roll

Joween
25 & dreaming.

//carpe diem//

better known as joweeeeen. your typical singapore girl. searching for happiness. quite a sentimental person who appreciates cards and letters a lot. crazy at times and pretty emotional. has a contagious laughter and a twin too. older every 21 march. insecure, annoying and always overthinking. shy and quiet, or outgoing and loud. afraid to trust, but dare to dream. loves long hugs, heart to heart talks, sincere text messages and reading handwritten cards. imagining things that will never happen. always setting high hopes and getting disappointed in the end. figuring life out every single day.

9 June 2013, the best day of my life. Live like Jesus, live with Jesus and live for Jesus.
"For nothing is impossible with God."-Luke1:37♥

jayesslee asia world tour 17/1/15
otrasg (omg i still can't believe it) 11/3/15
echosmith live in singapore + shopping 11/8/15
JTR @ asian tv awards 3/12/15
malfie @ dmu 5/12/15
slflsg (omg it was lit) 3/3/16
pentagon in sg 3/6/17
sf9 in sg 30/6/17
vixx in sg 2/12/17
jbj in sg 30/12/17
in2it in sg 2/2/18
jbj exid b1a4 in sg 21/2/18
5sos3 singapore 2/5/18
mxm in sg 4/5/18
wanna one in sg 13/7/18
hallyu pop fest 7/9/18-9/9/18
astro aroha festival in seoul 2/3/19
sbs super concert in gwangju 28/4/19
dream concert 2019 in seoul 18/5/19
w24 concert @ clubff 22/6/19
onlyoneof dot point jump fansign 29/6/19
kamp singapore 10/11/19
onlyoneof hit the line tour in malaysia 22/11/19
onlyoneof produced by part [1] video call fansign 7/6/20
e'last awake video call fansign 5/12/20 12/12/20
ntx full of lovescapes video call fansign 26/4/21 15/5/21
d-crunch daydream video call fansign 4/6/21
d-crunch addiction video call fansign 8/4/22 16/4/22
tan 2tan we ver video call fansign 31/7/22 13/8/22 14/8/22
tan dream & deurim video call fansign 28/10/22
nine.i i(part 1) video call fansign 22/12/22
tan essege video call fansign 25/3/23
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the blood in my veins is made up of mistakes.

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something to prove, nothing to lose.

singapore. '98. aries. infj. dance.

i'm stuck in between a nightmare and lost dreams.

wrps '05-'10
cchy '11-'14
pjc '15-'16
ntu wkwsci '17-'21
& a slave of capitalism for the rest of my life

make it sound so sweet when you lie to me.

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Sunday, 17 November 2013 || 8:59 pm

Physically tired, mentally stressed out, emotionally unstable, spiritually lost.
Times like this I want to dig up a whole in the ground and bury myself in it. Times like this I hate life and I want to escape reality. But it's impossible to do so. "Shit happens, suck it up and deal with it." It's not that easy to do it. It's like one moment you're having the time of your life, the next moment everything changes and the whole world comes crashing down on you. You feel lonely and there's no one to talk to. You want to spill everything out to someone but there's no someone. You think everything is going to be okay but you know what? It's not. You feel affected by that small thing. You feel judged and everything. Suddenly, the world feels foreign to you. It feels like life is taking revenge in you for all the bad things you have done. For me, it's history repeating itself again. I tell myself, I've been through this before and I can go through it again. But it's difficult. I can't, but I must. I'm still not used to this, even though its been a week. I don't know why. No one to hear me complain. No one to hear me talk crap. No one. Things are just different. It just needs time to get used to it.
I can go through this again, right? I don't know.
I telling myself to move on because I shouldn't be living in the past nor dwelling in it. It's pointless anyway. Things will get better. What's happened and is over, is over.
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